2013: Dealing with Life Changes
With only a month of 2013 behind me, it seems this is going to be the year of dealing with life changes. January was a really long month. As you know, my dad passed away in December. That was really hard to handle. However, I had the holidays to take up some of my time. This month, I didn’t have that luxury. So, I had plenty of time to reflect on things during the month of January. Let me share with you how my life has changed in the past year.
Back in May, I graduated from college. That was an exciting event in my life. However, life hasn’t gone according to plan since then. I didn’t get a full-time teaching position as I was led to believe I would. That meant I had to start substitute teaching, which was great. I immediately got a long-term position that I loved. However, it was in a subject I wasn’t certified to teach. So, the school system hired a new teacher days before dad passed. Now, I’m trying to deal with an erratic working schedule where I never know if/when I’ll work. Plus, if I do work, I don’t know where it will be (I’ve subbed at four different schools so far). Also, I’m now having to pay back my student loans. This is actually a source of great stress for me as I also have grants that aren’t being fulfilled yet because I don’t have a job.
My Father’s Death
Like I said above, I had Christmas and family to distract me right after it happened. Now, it’s just me and my mom in our house. I haven’t felt up to going out much and I haven’t hung out with any friends in months. I have good days and bad days. I have nights where I can’t sleep at all because my mind won’t stop racing. He’s been gone two months now and I still have trouble believing it at times. I really miss him.
Yep, 2013 is definitely going to be all about me learning to deal with life changes. Do you have any tips for me?